Haha I haven't heard from you in a while bud!

1. Yeah, mom said that she would pay the difference for the computer earlier yesterday but then I got home and she said that I had to wait for the few months that it would take me to raise the 100 dollars that I need. :( But yay! I will be getting one! Eventually.

2. Thank you. I noticed that immediately after realizing this concept, I felt better about a lot of things. I knew it before but I had never actually applied it to myself. But I'm good now.

3. Thank you! I like the song

YOU:

Good for you Brad. If she would lead you on like that then she shouldn't expect you to act the same way after you find out that she is into someone else. If she doesnt care enough to want to be with you, then she doesnt have the right to care enough to be hurt if you flirt with someone else. It's not like you are dating or even thinking about dating. She was the one who decided to be with someone else, so she doesnt deserve you.

Hope you're doing good bud! You need to catch me up with what else is going on in your life! Call me sometime. I'll talk to you later.

<3Alexis

thats great!

i hope things work out for you guys

it seems like you deserve it

just treat her right

if things dont work out stay friends

sometimes the little things mean the most

never forget that if shes moody it means she needs u the most

always know there something behind the "im just tired" excuse

and being there for her doesnt always mean finding out wats wrong

sometimes she will just need a shoulder to cry on

if shes crying she may not even know the reason

just be there till she does

"love is a time when the other persons happiness is far more important then your own" remember that

steal her heart and never let it go------

---------------just thought id put sum advice in there

GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!

recreational plant.

Don't be so hard on yourself, your friend is right. It may seem like that now, but just remember if you're open to being happy, and actually allow yourself to, you will end up happy. Good luck.

Hahaha yeah, those boys be wimps! XD

<3Alexis

Wow you are pissed. I think it's a good thing you've realized how u don't need this person anymore tho. they don't seem like a very good friend to you and i'm sure u deserve much better.

~cassidy~

Hey Brad,

     I'm so glad you are able to roll with the punches .  You know when I'm going through a difficult time I love to read.  All the books you pick are great works of Lit.  Lit. were some of my favorite classes in college. 

     Now I have to say I read stuff most forks would consider mainstream.  I love Karin Slaughter.  She is one of my favorite authors.  She writes murder mystery novels that come in a series.  I'm hooked on them. 

    I'm really hoping all works out well for you and look forward to sticking my nose in your diary hehehe.  Take care. . 70sson

yes!  shout it out!  you're so secure in your masculinity that you will announce it to the MDD world.  XD
~Kate

omg that has to be scary:( lol but that's just me cause i hate storms:)

idk what i would do with a hurricane!!lol

good luck with everything:)

you and all the other people will be in my prayers:)

am i being a ditz or something? lol cause idk why you would be evacuated:(

why?

I really don't like athletes, probably because they play sports and I don't like sports.

-Jovonnah Rabbit

i liked it

keep writing.

Meghan

*Show the world what you have baby doll*

     Hey,
  I've been reading your entries. You seem like a wonderful person. If I could, I'd tell you a hundred million things but since you don't know me, that would be a weird thing to do. And like everyone's being telling you, you write very well.
 I hope you will find some meaning in this poem I wrote many days ago. Hang in there.
  Love,
  Maya

Then, there is love

Have courage, keep dreaming, keep searching and keep hoping

 You won’t find me if you pine, whine and while your time moaning

For I am hidden in energy, for I come from the land of courage

 My love, haven’t you heard that sweet old adage?

      Where there is hope, there is love;

       Where there is faith, there is love

Have you felt the mighty hills and the rain?

 Have you felt the magic in the wind and gone insane

For the pure joy of being alive, every minute and hour?

 My love, look outside you and see my power!

Where the sun meets the sky, there is love;

Where the two becomes one, there is love;

Have you learnt to see beyond the scarf and the mask?

 Have you made finding the truth, your life’s task?

For in seeking, we discover, the truth deep within

 My love, learn to listen, to the melody in the din!

      When the reason, the emotion unite, then there is love

 When the soul no longer has to fight, then there is love

     Have you understood that with struggle we become strong?

       Have you understood that sometimes right may seem wrong?

     For appearances are deceptive, the way home is rather tough

       My love, haven’t you heard of the diamond in the rough?

     When there is recognition, there is love

       When there is acceptance there is love

     Have you, in our dreams, found comfort, strength and solace?

      Have you seen that life’s about running and not winning the race?

     For that greatest joy lies in loving, laughing and living

      My love, don’t let your heart think ill, teach it the art of forgiving

    Where there is unbreakable trust, there is love;

     Where there is withstanding innocence, there is love;

[mayakay]

Brad? Seriously, love. I think there just might be something wrong with you.

^.^ Still my best buddy though!

P.S. You said that you are the king of chaos. And then in the end you say that you will become  their king of chaos. Which one is it, bud?

Hehe, talk to ya laterrr aligatorrrrrr

Honest and blunt opinions are not necessarily a bad thing. I think it isn't a quality to be trashed or deleted. With a little tact and moderation, frankness can become quite an advantage...Sometimes, saying the blunt thing isn't mean. What most people really need is a down-to-earth sentence. And when you really care for another person, you can (and sometimes need to) tell them what no one else dares to tell them about.
 The truth is what most people try to escape from.

Maya

i'm tired so as i am speed reading through your whole diary for the first time (and enjoying it) so i find it funny how this diary is my week so far in a nutshell. basically i have the same problem. i like to say i'm honest or blunt, but my friend, one of the few i have left, says i'm bitchy. i've been trying to be "nicer" but i feel like i'm sugar-coating everything and not being myself. then i tried just not saying anything, keeping my comments to myself which resulting in wanting to kill someone from not being able to blurt out my opinions. i'm rambling due to exhaustion but i just wanted to share the fact that your not the only one who shares unwanted honest opinions.

oh, and i really like your diary!

Well this girl sounds like a bitch to me... lol! From the way you desribed her anyway...

But I have come across these kinda people all the time where I live... my town is full of them, and when I go out anywhere in the area I am in... you can't escape them! So I sorta know how you feel!

Well good luck!

Awhhhh

thats cute brad but I do have to laugh at the "you are the sweetest boy ever" part of one of your contacts lol

"Distance makes the heart grow fonder..."

That statement can be true in a few instances. Just make sure you realize not to completely isolate yourself from her. Because that can always be taken the wrong way. But since she seems to have a diary and such on here, I'm sure she'll understand :]

[sincerelyashley]

hey brad. thanks for the support! You know you can always call me when you have a problem as well. Hugs!!

Talk to ya later bud

<3 Moi

I have to write a 2000-3000 word paper on the changes in graphic design in the past 200 years. It sucks!!!

No one else did it either.

Luckily our teacher is the sh!t and let the ones that came make it up.

No. I did not do the paper.

My mind was consumed with these "problems"

I was going to do it last night, but then I fell asleep and didn't do it. I still went to class to face the music. It would just be worse if I missed class too.

The whole class didn't do the paper either. So we all got another week extension =D.

So now I will do it no matter what. I really lucked out and I usually do. Half of the class was gone and only the ppl that showed up got the extension and the ppl that missed get a zero. I never was thinking about missing tho.

So I lucked out.

Things are better with the roommates but maybe it's not a place for me to live. I may have to move to get away from the high school drama... in college. lol

I already did before you posted that.

Now we are on a equal understanding of each other.

They didn't like that I kept to myself so much, that's what bothered them the most.

Now we're friends and we're cool!!

I'm happy now. =)

Thanks for adding me to your faves!!

I updated then entry.. more stuff has happened since. =(

I do ignore them.. it is HARD!, soo hard. It's hard to pretend you like someone that you don't. Especially when they treat you like dirt all the time and you have to pretend your dumb and don't know better.

The internet at my apt is messed up so I couldn't get on MDD last night and I really needed to vent. I'm at the library now and I got up early just to leave before they all got up (one was gone already).  Now I'm staying at school all day to keep away.

I decided that I'm moving at the end of the quarter (in Sept.).. I'm 95% sure I am moving. Something drastic would have to happen for me to stay here, doubtful that it will..

I'm adding you. =)

Thanks for adding me to your favorites!

*hugs*

Hey Brad?

You're weird.

....But I'll forgive you.

A world without rules is equivalent to HELL. seriously! There would be so many more problems if people were just running around doing what they wanted. 

Thanks for commenting me. I want to talk to the nice roommate about it but there's still a fear that she will tell the b!tch one and then there will be chaos in my house. I feel about an inch away from all 3 of them being against me. I should just not acknowledge her and maybe she will get the big picture.

also, it's until. only one L. =D

we fear the opinions of those we know, in case they might see us in another light,let go of our greed and ego ,a survival skill we no longer need